Over the subsequent 9 weeks, we invite you to return alongside on an IVF journey, step by intense step. From making the resolution to go ahead with in-vitro fertilization, to the meds concerned and what they’re really like, and to discovering out whether or not this emotional and typically painful curler coaster journey yielded the outcomes so dreamed of and prayed for. BabyCenter blogger Melissa Willets can be documenting each element in a sequence of weblog posts.
I’ll always remember sitting in my physician’s workplace and listening to her matter-of-factly telling us that some meds, used throughout the egg stimulation and embryo switch phases of IVF, might solely be administered through injections.
Her calm supply of this info left me considering, “Okay. No large deal.” Besides it’s a large deal, and I’ll let you know why.
As just a little background, I don’t have a worry of needles. I don’t get pleasure from getting injections, however after 4 pregnancies being poked and prodded, even having undergone an amniocentesis, I’m over my needle phobia from childhood.
However when my injectable drugs arrived through mail, I used to be shocked by the sheer variety of them. Most meds for the egg stimulation section require refrigeration. Under is a photograph of my “medication.”
Even scarier? My husband, who has no medical coaching, can be administering the photographs. Once more, not a educated medical skilled. My husband. He would discover ways to correctly put together and administer the injections by watching movies on-line.
I do know he appears completely happy on this picture! However he had a tough time with the thought of inflicting ache on me every night time.
Earlier than my injections, which we did round dinnertime as soon as our youngsters had been occupied or asleep, I needed to psych myself up. Throughout the egg stimulation section (extra on what that’s really like subsequent week), I might obtain two photographs per night time. Nearer to my retrieval, that quantity elevated.
I’d stroll round and breathe deeply and repeat just a few mantras I discovered useful whereas my husband ready my photographs. My anxiousness stage began to extend considerably the nearer we obtained to having to do them. And right here’s the drawback: the meds, which are hormones, may cause many uncomfortable side effects. For me, one aspect impact was elevated anxiousness. So the additional we obtained into this cycle, the tougher it grew to become for me to calm my nerves pre-injection time.
Here’s a very sincere video I took of us doing my injections. I’m not sharing it to scare anybody; however relatively so anybody going by way of IVF received’t really feel as alone as I did.
Doing the injections by no means obtained simpler. I felt emotional the entire time. Wrapping my thoughts round what I was doing to attempt to get pregnant, and that I was placing myself by way of all of this, even when it could or could not work, was difficult, to place it mildly. I additionally struggled with not realizing what would come subsequent, having by no means gone by way of IVF earlier than.
For instance, I didn’t know the embryo switch section of IVF required injections, too. Extra on that later, however for now I’ll say that these photographs had been worse for me. The needles are bigger, since this stage requires intramuscular injections of hormones, versus the subcutaneous injections I acquired throughout egg stimulation. Oh, and so they needed to be administered in my butt. It damage. So much.
In the finish, dealing with the many injections required by IVF was one in all the most difficult facets of my journey. However browsing by way of chat rooms, I noticed that for some girls, this isn’t as large of a deal. I can’t relate to that, however I’m certain what all of us girls have in widespread, is by the time we full an IVF cycle, you take a look at the variety of injections, and also you assume, “Rattling.” It’s each emboldening, and humbling.
Taking a look at all these photographs, I additionally assume again to the many nights I sobbed to my husband, “I can’t do that.” However in some way, by way of doubt, worry, ache, tears and heartbreak, I did. And if I can, anybody can.
Learn extra about my IVF journey:
My IVF journey part 1: Saying sure to assist getting pregnant
My IVF journey part 2: 5 issues you should decide to, absolutely
Pictures: Melissa Willets